?*&%#$@

I am constantly trying to be better. I'm trying to be a better friend, daughter, wife, nurse and Christian. But I keep failing. I keep telling myself to call all my friends on my day off. But I don't. I keep planning to spend the afternoon with my parents, but I never go. I try to take better care of my husband's needs (a clean home, a relaxing dinner, etc) but when I get off work I let him do it, because I tell myself that I worked too hard all day. I try to spend time in Scripture each day and talk to God throughout my day, but, again, I rationalize that I'm too tired on days that I work. I am so frustrated with myself sometimes.